This morning as I was praying and thinking about things, I had a profound revelation come to me (well, profound to me anyways):
As I was praying and asking God to provide a job for me I suddenly started to think about how privileged I was. I began to remember the destitute situations that I had seen many of the Malawians living in. I don’t understand why I am so fortunate. I have been given a good family, I am rich in comparison to the overall economy of the world, I have almost endless resources at my fingertips, I live in a country of opportunity, I am not oppressed, and the list goes on and on!
I think of those suffering or barely getting by from day to day in Malawi, and I think “Why not me?”. It could just as easily be me living in a dirt shack with one or two rooms that I have to share with my aunt and uncle and cousins who have adopted me because my parents died of HIV/AIDS. I could be an innocent young boy who struggles with having to work like a grown man, who has no one to give him the guidance and comfort that he needs from his parents. I could be the boy in this home who is not shown love by his adopted family because 1. they don’t know how to love, 2. they don’t have time to show me love because they can barely take care of their primary family, and 3. because they actually hold an unspoken resentment that they have to take care of me. I am just a burden on their family. I could be this boy who has little hope of making it through primary school, let alone going to high school or to college.
Then I think of how silly it seems for me to be concerned about not finding the perfect job that I love. A typical African would be ecstatic to even have a job. Dreams about a job that suits their desires and skills is often not part of the possibilities. They would work hard for long hours, without being able to see much of their family, just so that they could make enough money to support them. And this would be seen as a blessing, a gift from God. If I got a job like this, I would be annoyed at God and I would feel like I was not being treated fairly by my creator!
My worldview has been expanded, and needs to continue to expand so that I can see things for what they really are. It’s so easy to live in apathy regarding the rest of the world. It’s so easy to live in ignorance to what is happening beyond what we are used to or what we see in front of us.
I need to be less concerned about finding the perfect job and more concerned about God’s people who are perishing because of the ignorant and unintentional, but nevertheless real oppression from me and you.